My children were growing as I sat zoned out behind a computer talking with people I have never met in person and sharing the most intimate parts of my life, and all my personal information…I was prompted to ask myself what is wrong with this picture? And what is real?
I have been wanting to ground and to come back to the root, which is family life, true and real connection and communication.
In my attempt to connect myself to people and real life again and to heal this feeling of separation that I have been experiencing I chose to remove myself from social media. I realized that for me social media was another addiction, another attempt to fulfill my longing to connect, but still be safe…because I did not have to be intimate. It was a way to hide behind my own issues with intimacy and closeness. And in the end was only making me feel more disconnected and separate from the world.
I am on a mission to get close in person and to heal this separation that has torn me and my family apart. To spend time looking into the eyes of my children, and the people who matter the most to me instead of a computer screen. To be present with my own thoughts, instead of inundating my brain with the thoughts of others. To become intimate with myself, and to explore that universal question of who am I?